Belinda, I've been out of my creative practice for what feels too long... exempt from my participation (re-participation) with chronic illness. I don't have the energy and time to mani-fest... (loved how you included the etymology, I NEVER KNEW!! It'll shift my perspective ever-more)
... with my 'striking' creative essence (the one knocking the door of psyche).
I have to reconcile... I am creating with myself, as myself, to myself - for a reflection of myself. The Bone-House if you will (to share with @Martin Shaw)
I recently held an artists Healing Circle - and the theme we ended up sharing was having to "Be the Witness to One's Self" creation. Oft, and my story especially, the only One that is there to behold the initatory experience- is You, Yourself, and I. And I would go to say, even the 'ethereal presences' that your do or do not feel...
As a point of self indulgence... the creativity I have been able to find capacity and excitement for is writing ttrpg one-shot homebrew sessions - and just keep keep keep on trying to gather my friends and family for them. To keep keep keep offering a time and space for this imagination as some perceived "unproductive" time and story and characters manufactured from a collective storytelling- in the name of fun, ease, and curiosity... for at the end of the day - all we did was participate in some group guided storytelling... to no 'determinate' social revolution ends... even if it is just us being around each other.
And I am finding I have to justify this 'creative writing' as both something more and something less than what I feel is needed to be Created by me in this world...
Tracking Back - momentarily as far as I can go - grade school - sharing my new found research with the class at my own whimsy... wanting to showcase the grandiose size of the Megalodon to my peers - drawing up a shark on paper (I did get the size wrong, so it wasn't as big as it should have been).
Trailing trailing... the natural way of Being that was there that also rests here...
Connection to spark Another's Curiosity... while I hold particular answers for the focus I bring to the Community... I aim to inspire the same level of involvement with One's Curious - showing the simple possibilities that come from exploring the world around us.
Also, I’m always curious about timing. And so now I have a greater sense of you and see that you were / are so excited by this research, and the sharing, but you do don’t quite get the size right. The vastness of it....
Hello, I found myself called back to this post this morning. Abd see that I didn’t respond to your trailing back. I’m noticing now the love you express for your young self, that feeling seeing him, and being seen by your older self now.
knocking on the door of the psyche! Hey, sorry to take so long to repond. I feel like simply by eating, breathing, we are participating in the alchemy of creation...creativity. I know it's not the same as actully 'making something' or is it? Have your read Sophie Strand on illness?
Yes writing, and healing together. That sounds like a great circle.
The keep keep keep keeping.
I was just re reading Belonging by toko-pa turner. Have you read it? I love how she reframes the 'passive' productivity of the 'yin' / female / dark / imagination as actually receptive. And makes a great point: Anyone who has engaged thoroughly in receptive states such as meditation, knows how much active engagement there can be there in that 'stillness'. It's a good book to read. She's on here...gosh can't rememeber her page name right now, shite. The above is from the chapter Inner Marriage, and she has a great one on Pain as a Sacred Ally.
Oh yes, I have very much read Sophie Strand's work. She has intimately transformed my evolution with my Body. I do find the propensity of being within this alchemy of creation revolutionary difficult as "I am the One that upholds these virtues" - it's an exhaustive existence to be initiator, witness and guide to my transformative sensations... that's truly where my difficulties lie in recognizing this real alchemical self... I know the myths and attentiveness to all that is mystic... yet when I am the 'sole-proprietor' of having to hold all that energy... it feels redundant, lost, and buried within this body...
I have not read Belonging - another title I see circulating on Substack here quite frequently... (found her on here : https://tokopa.substack.com ) - I am intensely receptive and have to subdue it a lot or else be lose myself to it - it's a space I am within consistently to the point of neurosis... ensuring that I am always overlooking the simplicity of the moment or enjoyment for "I have to be 'more magical' " somehow.
The storytelling is Table-Top-Role-Playing (Game) - dice and character play.... where-in I write the story prior as well. Think 'Creative Prose' that others get to interplay their own involvement in - all creative - all play.
Belinda, I've been out of my creative practice for what feels too long... exempt from my participation (re-participation) with chronic illness. I don't have the energy and time to mani-fest... (loved how you included the etymology, I NEVER KNEW!! It'll shift my perspective ever-more)
... with my 'striking' creative essence (the one knocking the door of psyche).
I have to reconcile... I am creating with myself, as myself, to myself - for a reflection of myself. The Bone-House if you will (to share with @Martin Shaw)
I recently held an artists Healing Circle - and the theme we ended up sharing was having to "Be the Witness to One's Self" creation. Oft, and my story especially, the only One that is there to behold the initatory experience- is You, Yourself, and I. And I would go to say, even the 'ethereal presences' that your do or do not feel...
As a point of self indulgence... the creativity I have been able to find capacity and excitement for is writing ttrpg one-shot homebrew sessions - and just keep keep keep on trying to gather my friends and family for them. To keep keep keep offering a time and space for this imagination as some perceived "unproductive" time and story and characters manufactured from a collective storytelling- in the name of fun, ease, and curiosity... for at the end of the day - all we did was participate in some group guided storytelling... to no 'determinate' social revolution ends... even if it is just us being around each other.
And I am finding I have to justify this 'creative writing' as both something more and something less than what I feel is needed to be Created by me in this world...
Can you see your thread? If you track back...what is the feeling, yearning, natural way of being that was always there?
Tracking Back - momentarily as far as I can go - grade school - sharing my new found research with the class at my own whimsy... wanting to showcase the grandiose size of the Megalodon to my peers - drawing up a shark on paper (I did get the size wrong, so it wasn't as big as it should have been).
Trailing trailing... the natural way of Being that was there that also rests here...
Connection to spark Another's Curiosity... while I hold particular answers for the focus I bring to the Community... I aim to inspire the same level of involvement with One's Curious - showing the simple possibilities that come from exploring the world around us.
Also, I’m always curious about timing. And so now I have a greater sense of you and see that you were / are so excited by this research, and the sharing, but you do don’t quite get the size right. The vastness of it....
Thank you for being in this conversation with me
Hello, I found myself called back to this post this morning. Abd see that I didn’t respond to your trailing back. I’m noticing now the love you express for your young self, that feeling seeing him, and being seen by your older self now.
knocking on the door of the psyche! Hey, sorry to take so long to repond. I feel like simply by eating, breathing, we are participating in the alchemy of creation...creativity. I know it's not the same as actully 'making something' or is it? Have your read Sophie Strand on illness?
Yes writing, and healing together. That sounds like a great circle.
The keep keep keep keeping.
I was just re reading Belonging by toko-pa turner. Have you read it? I love how she reframes the 'passive' productivity of the 'yin' / female / dark / imagination as actually receptive. And makes a great point: Anyone who has engaged thoroughly in receptive states such as meditation, knows how much active engagement there can be there in that 'stillness'. It's a good book to read. She's on here...gosh can't rememeber her page name right now, shite. The above is from the chapter Inner Marriage, and she has a great one on Pain as a Sacred Ally.
Group guided story telling!! with your family?
Oh yes, I have very much read Sophie Strand's work. She has intimately transformed my evolution with my Body. I do find the propensity of being within this alchemy of creation revolutionary difficult as "I am the One that upholds these virtues" - it's an exhaustive existence to be initiator, witness and guide to my transformative sensations... that's truly where my difficulties lie in recognizing this real alchemical self... I know the myths and attentiveness to all that is mystic... yet when I am the 'sole-proprietor' of having to hold all that energy... it feels redundant, lost, and buried within this body...
I have not read Belonging - another title I see circulating on Substack here quite frequently... (found her on here : https://tokopa.substack.com ) - I am intensely receptive and have to subdue it a lot or else be lose myself to it - it's a space I am within consistently to the point of neurosis... ensuring that I am always overlooking the simplicity of the moment or enjoyment for "I have to be 'more magical' " somehow.
The storytelling is Table-Top-Role-Playing (Game) - dice and character play.... where-in I write the story prior as well. Think 'Creative Prose' that others get to interplay their own involvement in - all creative - all play.